I think I’ve mentioned that I’ve been really busy lately, and it’s entirely true. I have a lot going on, and I can barely keep my head on straight. However, eventually, the stress gets to me. Not just being busy, but sometimes external factors play into giving me anxiety. Right now, I have this constant feeling of anxiety, making me unable to eat and sleep properly. This, in turn, makes things worse. It got so bad last night, I couldn’t even focus and had to ask for help on my Python classwork from my husband who doesn’t even know what Python is. Now you know where I’m at.
I do not have time to play video games. I really don’t. But I’m so stressed.
I make time (at night).
I started Skyrim.
For those that haven’t played, yes, it’s all true. I’ve already spent 7ish hours on the game, and I’ve literally done very little to advance it. But, I want to make a couple comments:
1. It’s the most beautiful game I’ve ever played. I literally stopped to look at the moon and stars. I’ve just gone out to take a walk. What is this? My mind blew up. The music is even wonderful.
2. The gameplay is weird for me. This could just be because I’m still kind of a novice player, but I’m making myself nauseated just watching myself play. I’m used to playing Fable, so this could also be a reason.
3. I keep accidentally killing people. And I accidentally killed the second horse I stole. I feel terrible. I was trying to escape some sort of snow monster and we jumped off a cliff on accident. My poor, stolen horse saved me. Those other people I killed were because they jumped up behind me and I stabbed them out of over-reacting self-defense. Ugh. I still see their dead bodies…
4. Spiders. No one told me about the spiders. I have a serious phobia of spiders and I almost ran out of the room. I think I fought them with my eyes closed somehow.
5. The dragon. I squealed, and clapped my hands, I was so happy when I saw it.
Unfortunately, this game is stressing me out a little too. Mainly because I don’t know what I’m doing. Perhaps I should just take some walks out in nature in the game? I know the second I get into my groove in the game, I’m going to be in love. And since I know this game is going to take me forever, I’ll be starting Bioshock Infinite to play alongside.
Yes, this is how I deal with extreme stress. I think it’s a perfectly wonderful coping strategy.
For those of you who may be wondering: I’m a Khajiit and I named myself Stormaggedon (nerd alert!).